Silence,especially at the dinner table,is terrible.It makes me want to scream;it gives me a headache.

Usually I do the talking and everyone laughs.It doesn't matter if no one else wansta contribute because thats MY job and I love it but these days, I talk and I talk and I talk and nobody gives a HOOT.

I know the pops is angry with me because I lied.BUT I SAID I WAS SORRY.And I really really am.He's very very extremely disappointed cus I've always been the honest one unlike his other child who lies at every other oppurtunity he gets.TSK.

And I said I was sorry and I really feel bad and I swear it will never happen again:(

Dinnertime sucks.I gave up trying to talk.And the pops said very quitely after dinner,

when its time for dinner you talk hell alot and you make as laugh but you finish eating LAST.Now you don't talk at all and you still finish LAST. Go think about that.

WHATWHATWHAT.Its been a known fact eversince day one that I'm a slow eater and it has never been an issue.so now it has hasn't it? The next time we eat together I'll not say anything at all-not even pass the chicken- and I'll make sure I finish FIRST.

The pops hasn't said more than three lines to me since thursday.Its a sad,sad thing.I know he feels terrible but he still chooses NOT to forgive me.Even if he does try to talk now its not gonna make me talk to him anymore because THE DAMAGE IS DONE.and hell,i don't feel like talking anymore so there.

The moose isn't any better.she gave me a talk on TRUST and for the very first time in my entire life,I thought what she said actually made sense.And maybe thats cus instead of using the usual threats and nags, she chose to TUGHEARTSTRINGS and to use poetry on me.Thats bad.I'm a sucker for that.And so she said,

You're not me and I'm not you but you're part of me cus I had you.

Now now,you tell me which oxygen breathing heart thumping humane child won't feel something.

Well I've said sorry havent I:(